those were just comments... not my actions GM & Eric.

I will HEAR & listen. I will not be a people pleaser!! I do respect myself...honestly, I DO & will not just go have sex with him.

If I wasn't listening to you guys, I would have closed this account & did what ever urge I felt.

I am an eager student. I slip up with my words/actions...but that doesn't mean I don't feel things inside & am just sharing on here.

The "reward" comes from reading DB...reward good behaviour. I am not suggesting the "act" was good behaviour, but its a LONG time in the coming, HIS EFFORT towards kissing/sex, etc. Yes, I know its supposed to be mutual, but it WASNT. Just noticing and wishing things were different so that I could let him know that was attractive (within proper R).

Where is the rope Gabby? its a slow process, but my thoughts for today keep going back to "NOT GOOD ENOUGH" I want more, etc....

SO... only answer questions. He did not ask any questions about the "make out" so don't go volunteering explanations...<<<< got it!!

M:46 H:49 T:20yrs
myD:22
H distant summer/12
H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12
BD: Dec 2/12
asked me begin to move end of Jan/13
moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff)
"agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)