What to do

[Ben2010]

So Im already having a rough day. I went to the counselor today and broke down in his office. I cant help but to do that everytime I think about what Ive done to my W. Im finding it very hard to have a positive outlook at all right now. I cant seem to function at work, which is where Im at right now. I just have a very uneasy feeling that this isnt going to turn out how I want it to. The counselor seems to think that I made the right move by telling the W that I didnt think we should talk until she was ready to work on the R. I keep flip flopping on it, whether it was the right move or not. Trying to take advice from people on here telling me to chill out about it. I just cant imagine myself finding someone that I will care about as much as my W and for that matter I am not even close to interested in that. The counselor did say that she might be angry because she knows that we shouldnt be separated right now and doesnt want to feel guilty. He also said that she might be wanting a D even though she hasnt said that she did, but that she is too afraid to face the confrontation. Im trying to be strong here and not give in to contacting her. I still cant help but to remember the time before we got married and I broke up with her for 2 weeks. She bothered me nonstop for the 1st week and I told her to stop that I didnt want that. She stopped and didnt contact me for a week and then finally texted me to have sex. Im hoping that it only takes her a week like it did me of not bothering her to start talking to me, but not very optimistic about it. I appreciate all of you guys helping me through this. I dont think I could make it at all if I wasnt here.