Feeling really down today. Didn't sleep well last night. Trying not to think of all the good times and memories of my relationship with W. I am committed to work the program though, but realize there are good days and bad to very bad days. When you get to a point to where you realize what you did wrong and why, the bad starts to go away and gets replaced with the good. That also makes you want to fight even more for what you think is right.
I hope to be able to keep that locked up around W, and maybe let it go on here or my journal. I have found that taking notes often makes it easier to get through the tough times. The feelings have to be out somewhere or it will just make things worse. Maybe one day I can look back at these notes, and say wow I can't believe I did and thought all of these things.
