"Man The F*** Up" The Ultimate 180

[RedHawk98]

Cheers for the input guys, you're quite right.
Hey its no excuse but I didn't just lose my wife who was my best friend. I discovered how fair weather all my friends were too. That's if they weren't trying to get a piece of her.

The final straw was finding the box of baby clothes that we bought for the future. While packing up and getting rid of most of what I own to move. Far away for a fresh start.

Yeah, I was having a bad day. Sorry guys.

With regards what to do now. I have no idea. I have made genuine changes but I understand that when buttons are pushed, those changes can slip and it doesn't look like it.

My wife is an avoider. Conflict, apologising, anything like that.


Thing is, she just has no respect for me. And to be honest, if she continues to lie to me and refuse to apologise, I'm not sure how much longer my respect will last either.
It really is a hard battle. And I'm tired.