Going to be a long story. My W walked away 3 moths ago. We tried MC for about 6 months to no avail. I had hid a pornography addiction, and lied about quitong my chewing tobacco habit numerous times. It got to the point to where I was just angry and we fought a lot. We have 2 kids, 2 and 5, and split custody with them.
I have DR and have read and skimmed it often. Trying my best to detach and GAL. However I made a lot of mistakes at first. I was emotional, and needy, and I know it drover her further away. Then a bombshell 2 weeks ago, I snooped found a coiple of emails that were with OM, and comfronted her. All hell broke loose from that. She wanted a divorce, thought I was stupid, could never trust me and so on. So for the last 2 weeks very limited contact, and just rying ti be nice when we meet, and not argue or start anything.
However, thmpast Sunday, she called totalk to the kids and proceeded to just lose it. Couldnt stop crying, said she didnt want to live couldnt take it anymore. I lost it with her, couldnt control my emotions. I told her I loved her, was sorry, didnt want to hurt her anymore and so on. She said she doesnt know how I could do what I did if I loved her.
As of Monday, we talked on the phine about just normal day to day stuff, and Tuesday met at kiddos dance class and set and talked about just everyday stuff. Then today I dropped off kids with her and she was super nice, even cracked a joke about the kids and fathers day.
I know don't believe eveuthing you see and hear, but how in the world do you handle that stich. I have decided to try and just let go, but that convo on Sunday really shook me. I feel like she is maybe feeling guilty a bit, or confused on what she wants. I think she is suffering from post partum depression from last baby too, if thats possible. Since having her she has been super down, and just in a rut. Mind you my attitude probably didnt help at all.
I just don't know how to proceed after her broken moment. Should I continue to detach, try to get closer, or what? just looking for some help
