Another day down. Last night was pretty good didn't try to get in touch with, and played with my puppies. Still having a hard time sleeping though. It is getting better, but not very quickly. Actually doing a float down a river on a raft next weekend, with friends I let get out if my life, should be very fun and relaxing.
The only I need to do now is get my house on the market to sell. Have to clean and touch up some stuff. I never used to have such a motivation problem until the last year or so. Doesn't seem like I am in such a hurry to do anything right now. Have to work on getting on with life. Selling the house is a big step of giving in, and saying it could really be over. But it has to be done.
Hopefully I can continue to stay on some kind of course. Contact to a minimum, and keep my happy self up. That part is a big 180 for me, I was so stressed and uptight, everything just made me mad for the longest time. Now to get it to stick.
I have noticed in a few posts people implementing changes, but for the wrong reasons, just to win back W. I think I was trying to do that at first and still to a point, but it is starting to feel good to exercise, be happy, and enjoy my kids. So maybe turning the corner of understanding it's for me, and not the W.
