I declare myself "Survived" ! (VI)

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Im bald, seperated and soon to be UNEMPLOYED!!!!!!

My center is closing mid July . I was informed last week.

I was told to go to the conference room. When I walked in there was a box of tissues on the table. I knew.

My co-workers were ruined. Some will lose houses or cars.....

Thankfully, I have no Mortgage, no debt and live below my means.

There is interest in me within my company but at locations much further away from my Apt (up to 90 minutes away) Needless to say, my mind is all over the place.

My number 1 priority is being D4.5 father
My number 2 priority is to remain in the same area as to Maintain my support network and allow D4.5 as much contact with Mommy as possible

I realize that im scared of unemployment. Im also realizing that I was looking for "permission" to stop working from someone. I was at a point 2 nights ago where I was willing to accept ANY job- just to remain "employed".

Today Im mixed. I realized that If im unemployed I should use the time to do things I would never have the opportunity to do....Like take a three week trip to India- That is exciting. I have a friend there who would provide 100% lodging.

but then the Herculean task of finding a new job punches me in the gut and I start to think that I should take the same job that I hate BUT HAVE, in a different location further away, for less money- just to not be unemployed!!!!!!!

Im rambling right now...

I feel like I need to be "responsible" because im a father.....

but what does "responsible" mean in this context?

The best part in all of this;

I will have been confronted by my two biggest nightmares (W affairs and layoff) - I cant believe how much strength I have:)

Keep your head up no matter how FUBAR your sitch is !!!!!