Ok, I came to my senses. Not going out there. It's time to wrap this up. She wants to be with OM. She wants him to raise the kid. It's a done deal. Nothing I can do about it at this point. Just going to live my life and be happy.
W told me she wants to come back this weekend and wants me to pay for the airplane ticket. I just laughed and told her no.
My big decision is whether I just accept the kids pretty much full time with her getting them every other weekend or if I try to fight in court to get full custody and she only gets visitation..... I'll probably just go with what she's agreeing to. I don't want a big fight and have this thing drag on. I don't really want my kids around the OM or his drugged out mom, and I can't really trust my W to not bring them around her... but she said she wouldn't.
I'm guessing once W has the baby things are going to go sideways for her. I have a hard time believing they end up together, but you never know. I'm not waiting around though. I'm pretty sure that by the end of the year she will show interest to me again in some way... maybe even several times.
It's been quite the journey. A lot of chance for personal growth. I'm a lot more confident then when I started out. I have a lot better idea of what my role is in a relationship. This isn't going to defeat me, not a chance. I'm sure I'll still have some low points hit me, but I'll handle it.
I'll update from time to time. Who knows, maybe I'll get sucked back into the manipulation again, lol.
