Reading through your post I suggest you start by speaking to a Divorce Busting Coach as soon as possible. You can read through the books again [sorry, not offered in electonic version- publisher's decision, not ours]. You can also continue to get advice from on line community. But, at this point, you really need the professional help of a coach. Please call me to discuss our coaching program and get you started on the way to clarity and if nothing else, healing. Consider this just for YOU. Call me at: 303-444-7004
Roberta, Resource Coordinator The Divorce Busting Center 303-444-7004 Roberta@divorcebusting.com