I'm Just About Ready For The Fork

[tadpole1025]

Thanks Job and MrBond.

She'll blame you if the sun comes up, goes down or orbiting the earth. She'll blame you when the goose doesn't lay the golden egg. Why? Because she's miserable and doesn't know why and thinks it is still you...let it go! She's a miserable individual and you are not the blame for her unhappiness.

I have to remember this. I know it deep down, but I continue to let it boggle mind. She's miserable, but blames me for it? Even still? She got the new house and husband. I don't know why she would still be miserable. I just wonder what the Hell happened to the person I married. I can't grasp it sometimes.

Continue to move forward and how are you coming along preparing for your second interview? I am hoping that everything will go well and you'll get the position.

I'm pretty nervous and overwhelmed actually. I've been studying/preparing for it. It is such a big company and I REALLY NEED IT. NOT getting it is NOT an option. I have to. I do have my broadcast experience going for me, but man if I don't get it...

For a start why don't you go ahead and post something positive every day on here?

Well, it isn't much but S28 and I hung out by the pool last night here at the apartment. We had a couple of beers and had some good talk.

You can do it. But for some reason you don't seem to believe that.

You nailed it. Confidence has always been a problem of mine. Even after being rated #1 in my radio time slot over and over and being named one of the top 5 country disc jockeys in the COUNTRY, I still always wondered if I was good enough. Why? I don't know. The garbage with the XW made it worse I think. It can't all be blamed on her though because like I said, I've always had an issue with it. I guess it could be because I was never really encouraged much when I was growing up. Who knows...

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