I messed up big time.. I failed my goal in less than 8 hrs ffs!!!
1/06 15:27] *HER*: Im fine i dnt need easier [11/06 15:27] *ME*: U wont have 2 pay rent plus u get more space for urself [11/06 15:28] *ME*: U said u wanted space as well [11/06 15:29] *ME*: Its not enough but I guess its something [11/06 15:29] *HER*: Yh this isnt xactly apace [11/06 15:29] *ME*: I no [11/06 15:29] *ME*: U want me 2 move out [11/06 15:29] *ME*: I dnt no wer ill go [11/06 15:29] *HER*: We will c wen the tym goes not point goin into such detail as of yst [11/06 15:30] *HER*: Tbh u can get a room like how i lived at sues.. How can u not afford that? U mke it out like ur super vulnerable or sumink [11/06 15:30] *ME*: I wont b able 2 afford it [11/06 15:30] *ME*: I aint vulnerable [11/06 15:30] *ME*: I can go mums but with mums ill get poisoned [11/06 15:30] *ME*: But if u decide to end it then it wont matter [11/06 15:30] *HER*: I used to earn 500 how did i afford it *ME*!! [11/06 15:31] *HER*: Wots rng wiv u man up!!! [11/06 15:31] *HER*: Ther are room for £80 [11/06 15:31] *HER*: Howcan u not afford that??? [11/06 15:31] *ME*: If we did end it to be honest I rather go to mums coz then I would have family around me to help me get over u [11/06 15:31] *HER*: U allow urself to get poisoned [11/06 15:31] *ME*: It wouldnt matter [11/06 15:32] *ME*: N tbh even If I did maybe its a good thing as it will help me get over u faster [11/06 15:32] *HER*: Uno wot this is y i hate talkin to u but i feel like i have to coz if i come on whatsapp ur gna start chatin shyt! [11/06 15:32] *HER*: Im done [11/06 15:32] *HER*: Bye [11/06 15:32] *ME*: But I make my own decisions n I have my own mind [11/06 15:32] *HER*: Then u wonder y im off with u... I have to have these depressing talks every fuckin day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [11/06 15:32] *ME*: Wot do u want me to say that I will forever wait for u.. u think thats fair [11/06 15:33] *ME*: If we have a divorce I will do all I can to get over u [11/06 15:33] *ME*: I will do all I can to take u out my heart [11/06 15:33] *ME*: Im not talking depressing talks im talking real talks [11/06 15:33] *HER*: I want u to get ova me u fink i want u to wait?? [11/06 15:33] *ME*: Then whats the problem [11/06 15:33] *ME*: Coz I wont wait [11/06 15:34] *ME*: This is my waiting period right now [11/06 15:34] *HER*: This is the type of talks we have all the tym fucks sake y cant u just let oneday go by without making everyone n eveythin around u depressed!! [11/06 15:34] *HER*: I dont care f u dnt wait i dnt want u to [11/06 15:34] *HER*: As far as im concerned u can get with someone noe! I dnt care [11/06 15:34] *HER*: Dnt think i want u to wait and get it twosted liked u do [11/06 15:34] *ME*: I dnt [11/06 15:34] *HER*: Just leave me the [censored] alone [11/06 15:34] *ME*: I no [11/06 15:35] *HER*: Fuckin helll [11/06 15:35] *ME*: I wont get with no one for atleast a yr n a half I was married u wernt my girlfriend [11/06 15:35] *HER*: I nt care of u dnt thats ur problem [11/06 15:35] *ME*: What kind of human u think I am [11/06 15:35] *HER*: A beast! [11/06 15:35] *ME*: U can do whatever u want [11/06 15:35] *HER*: Ur twisted in the head [11/06 15:35] *HER*: I will do woteer i want [11/06 15:36] *ME*: Thats fine I dont expect u not 2 [11/06 15:36] *HER*: Seriously this is just making my blood boil leave me alone... Wait coz u dt understand enhlish ima just block u [11/06 15:36] *HER*: So bye!!! [11/06 15:36] *ME*: Kl.. I dont mind to be honest I was just telling u ill go back 2 mums [11/06 15:42] *ME*: U dnt have 2 msg me wen u come whatsapp its fine I promise [11/06 15:42] *ME*: I wont say nuffin [11/06 15:43] *HER*: U always hav sumink to say i [11/06 15:43] *HER*: Im so sick of it! [11/06 15:43] *ME*: Not anymore *HER* [11/06 15:43] *ME*: Its not the same anymore [11/06 15:44] *HER*: Keeping tabs on me checking myn n henis itemised billing wtf [11/06 15:44] *ME*: Better than lieing [11/06 15:44] *HER*: U keep sayin dat but ur actions dnt prove that [11/06 15:44] *HER*: So what diff does it mke whether i lie or tell the truth [11/06 15:44] *ME*: Who knows what u done [11/06 15:44] *ME*: I just stopped asking [11/06 15:45] *HER*: Now u just check ryt get pple to do some dirty wrk for u [11/06 15:45] *ME*: U say u went by urself to a coffee shop but that dnt make sense [11/06 15:45] *ME*: But I dnt care anymore [11/06 15:45] *HER*: Does it not? Y not? [11/06 15:46] *ME*: U said it urself u dnt no what ur capable of anymore.. u also said u dnt no what u can or cant do.. n u dont know why u cant be honest anymore [11/06 15:46] *HER*: So whats dat got to do wiv a coffee? [11/06 15:46] *ME*: It dont matter forget it [11/06 15:46] *ME*: I dnt wna talk about it [11/06 15:47] *HER*: Oooh do u not [11/06 15:47] *ME*: It doesnt matter 2 me [11/06 15:47] *ME*: U can do what u want [11/06 15:47] *ME*: I aint gna stop u [11/06 15:47] *HER*: So wen u wana talk abt it its fine wen i ask u sumink it dnt marter [11/06 15:47] *HER*: Wotever man u myt not stop but i kno wot ur duin [11/06 15:47] *ME*: Ok fine ill answer ur question [11/06 15:47] *HER*: Just kno dat [11/06 15:47] *ME*: Trust me *HER* im not the same person [11/06 15:47] *HER*: I kno dat [11/06 15:47] *ME*: U can think what u want [11/06 15:48] *ME*: U can do wat u wany [11/06 15:48] *HER*: I kno dat [11/06 15:48] *HER*: Y u repeating urself? [11/06 15:49] *ME*: The thing is about coffee... if u were by urself u wldve said... I dnt no wot u did n I stopped assuming or thinking what u did.. I just dont believe u thats it [11/06 15:49] *ME*: I dnt think u were with anyone [11/06 15:49] *ME*: N I dont think u were by urself [11/06 15:49] *ME*: I jus choose not 2 care anymore [11/06 15:49] *HER*: So.... [11/06 15:49] *HER*: Whts wiv u heckun my bills and hennies and keeping tabs?? [11/06 15:50] *HER*: U sure ur words match ur actions? Coz from this angle thats nt the case [11/06 15:51] *ME*: *HER*, I’ve been through some very tough moments since you decided to want a divorce, you know. My love for you is so profound that I just couldn’t face the possibility of life without you. To a person like me who expected to marry only once and to remain committed for life, it is a severe shock to see our relationship begin to unravel. Nevertheless, I have done some intense soul searching, and I now realize that I have been attempting to hold you against your will. That simply can’t be done. As I reflect on our courtship and early years together, I’m reminded that you married me of your own free choice. I did not blackmail you or twist your arm or offer you a bribe. It was a decision you made without pressure from me. Now you say you want out of the marriage and, obviously, I have to let you go. I’m aware that I can no more force you to stay today than I could have made you marry me last year. You are free to go. If you leave me, then I will accept your decision. I admit that this entire experience has been painful, but I’m going to make it. The Lord has been with me thus far, and He’ll go with me in the future. You and I had some wonderful times together, *HER*. You were my first real love, and I’ll never forget the memories that we shared. I will pray for you and trust that God will guide you in the years ahead. [11/06 15:52] *ME*: That day forth *HER* my sense of willingness to try ended [11/06 15:55] *ME*: Im in a state where if you want to stay with me I will do all I can to make you happy and love you til eternity, if you dont then I wont stop you, but I wont try and keep u no more. Theres no more of me trying all im going to do is change for myself and better myself as a person. And ive been trying to do that which im very proud of myself for. I am not doing anything for you anymore.. im here if you need me.. im here if you want me.. but I wont be here forever unless you choose to be with me.. the choice is yours
