Thanks, Starsky. I appreciate it. (and the 4 whistle salute you gave me yesterday!)
Nobody will ever be able to accuse me of not trying. I'm walking out of here with that one. I will always be able to tell my kids that.
W said at one point yesterday that she tried and tried and tried and now she's done. (Heard it before.) Afterward, I agreed that she had tried and I had missed it. Mea culpa. I then said that the difference now was that we were both fully awake, and now we could try, and together we could solve anything. I keep trying to give her that ray of hope so she'll take that leap of faith.
Maybe it comes off as desperation, I don't know, and yes, it's just more words. MC seems to be the only hour of the week we actually talk about any of this, so I take my shots when I can.
I have been thinking that I could never respect her decision to not try. I would never understand how you could pass up that chance when you see the commitment level the other person has, and when the only thing it costs you is time. There has to be a mighty big pile of resentment there. And it's so easy to just fill that need from OM. I have to watch myself on this one. Man, human psychology ain't easy, is it.
