Thanks, I really had no choice as I can't just not have a birthday party for S7 this year because of everything going on. That isn't fair to him.

I REALLY try hard to be a good mom. H expects me to be super calm/smile all the time/handle anything without emotion when it comes to the kids. It's hard to be like this day after day of 4 kids with no break.

It's a personality flaw but I always try and meet every ones expectations of me.


Me: 35 husband:39
Sons 16 and 11 from my first marriage
Twins 5 (boy/girl)
Daughter 3
Affair bomb 2/27/14
He moved in with ow 3/13/14
OW kicked him out 6/15/14
4/2016 he seeks help for sexual addiction