After I made that last post yesterday I talked to my sister. Felt much better afterwards. She reminded me that I'm doing great and even if I'm taking baby steps I'm still making progress.

She also pointed out that things could be a lot worse, I could be sitting here with divorce papers etc. etc. We've talked about when he came home in Feb and dropped the bomb and how I validated his decision (not intentionally of course). But the yard was a wreck, I had boxes still stacked in the dining room etc.

Becoming a better person, happier, more positive, getting things (no matter how little they may seem) done around the house are all little things that "may" make him doubt his decision. My IC says when we are on vacation let him see the great woman he is choosing to walk away from. smile I have to remain positive and not let the little stuff drag me down.

So after his non-response from 2 nights ago, which was ridiculous on my part to worry about! I texted him yesterday, my first text simply said "hey" and guess what he responded....anyway, I asked him to call me which he did. We discussed carpet for D12's room, a medical bill, buying a car for Dalmost16. Also asked him to talk to me before he transferred D15 $$ on her card because she has been difficult, he agreed. A little small talk about the weather, food and his back. Overall a pleasant conversation even though it was mostly about business.

This roller coaster seems to have no end in sight! eek


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since