"how can I make myself detach to a point I dont care what happens?"

BY READING THE BOOKS!

Seriously, you want to be spoon fed the answers without understanding why. Everyone has done the work. You need to do the same.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER