Hi I'm new, I hope I won't be a burden on you guys

[Barrybran]

That tells me that im a chaser and she doesnt feel comfortable about telling me anything because she thinks im paranoid or suspicious

And what are you going to do about this?

As things currently stand, not only are you pushing her away, you may as well be the one going out, finding a guy and introducing him to her. That's how pushy and controlling you are being. You can stop this. You can do it. It is within you. We all believe in you. You need to start believing in yourself and show some trust in those who have been through this before you. Read the rules, live the rules and read the damn book!