Went to S’s event at school. H was there, of course. I walked away SO angry. Why? Why? Why? Why, can’t we just focus on reconciling and becoming a family again?? I so hate this, I just want him to come home and agree to work on things! If he were fully on board I can’t imagine that we can’t make it better, better than better! We could make it great if he were committed. I don’t get where he is at. And how freaking long it’s going to take him to come around. I know, I know, it’s a marathon not a sprint. Yada, yada, yada. Why doesn’t he do the right thing and stop putting his family through this???

Ok, ok…end of rant. I’ll try to get myself back into a PMA. Just ate a giant cookie, hoping that will help…(I know, not likely)

M: 42
H: 43
M: 8 years
S7 and D4
H has D19 and S25 from previous M
Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA
1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail
2nd separation: 5/1/14