Ok here we go part two

[Nettles]

I think Eric nailed it with the scared comments.

W knows I'm posting. She's the one who encouraged me to post and work things out.

Man, your original posts don't read like this is the case. Your very first post:

I'm new,
No real idea who will see this but here we go( I looked at the abbreviations but I'm winging it)
I thought I'd give my story but I think I'll give the "Coles notes"

If W encouraged you to post, why the no real idea comment? And did we add "Coles notes" to eliminate any doubt on who you were?

I valued my w's opinion of me so much. More then I valued my own. The last trigger was reading words she had written about me over 19 months. Reading that she saw me as weak. It made me angry.

Recently I did something I have deep regret about. I invaded her privacy and read her words. I saw a truth about how she saw me and was destroyed by it. In that way she was right. I am weak

Is it possible you found the those words here?

But all that isn't really the point. What I'm hoping for is that you can be honest with your posts, not just "accurate". We are all trying to move from weak to strong, change, improve. Do you want to?