Hmmm....just reading some posts and reflecting a little bit. Maybe I haven't made many changes. I feel like my life is still the same, my thought process is still the same, my house is kept up better but overall still the same. I have been on the computer for about an hour already this morning...still the same.

Still feeling sorry for myself too. Get over it and get moving!

Funny how I can think I'm making changes and when I really take a look at myself realize I've been lying to myself about it. Need to make some genuine changes for me, what am I so afraid of?


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since