Is OW just batsh!$ crazy?

[twinmom]

Thank you ladies, it's just crushing to hear how he really feels. He is always so "poker faced" with me and very distant I never know how to read him. These messages to the fake person are a RARE insight to what he is actually thinking.

I know it most likely wouldn't do any good but would love to call him out on as few things.

He has said that only I think the divorce is his fault because he doesn't want to work on things.

He said I wouldn't accept him completely and that's another reason he left.

He said he knows I still hope he will come back (time to go darker and make sure there is NO pursuit or does this mean he just knows the path home is smoothly paved??)

He said he wanted to leave almost a year ago but stayed because of the kids.

He said after he left I decided to make changes (I guess he noticed but doesn'tcare about my 180's?????)