Not sure what you hoped to achieve with that really long text conversation. The majority of it which was unintelligible.
You said you read the books. The first thing they say is NO relationship talks, so you went and backslid on that in a MAJOR way. Also, you continued to want to control her actions. You kept telling her to tell you the truth and demanding answers while also telling her you "understand". From that interaction, it shows you don't.
She constantly asked you for space and time to think things out. But you wouldn't let it go. I mean, look how many times you responded compared to her.
That's why she's frustrated with you. You don't seem to listen.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.