Cross country DB with WAS

[Anders]

And since I DB'd my ass off for 2 years before my D happened, I can only speak for myself, but at the end of that journey, I really didn't even want him back anymore. So if you say that, I promise I will understand, and so would most people here.

I really appreciate the support Betsey. At least for now, the DB journey continues.

There are moments when it feels so easy to just stop. I was at a wedding this weekend. Great time all around. Nice to receive attention from a very attractive girl despite my not pursuing her (or most likely because I was not pursuing her). Friends noticed and were encouraging me. I didn't.

Then I received a text from W asking if I was free to talk that night. First communication in two weeks. I felt a bit curious about what she wants to talk about and was quickly able to switch gears back to simply enjoying the wedding.

We are to talk later this week.

The very next day, a group of us were talking. A female friend heard about my new career move and some of my uncertainties. She said she believed in me.

The only thought in my head at that moment was that I cannot remember the last time W said that to me. And in those moments, it is tough not to feel both lonely and angry. And to ask why I am still here.

I have some questions for you on your story Betsey. I will follow up on these after I read through your threads.