MID CHOMP here on this (semi-awful) home-made (brick - uh hem - scone- i'm acknowledging that i should stfu about all this stuff - and be incredibly grateful that i am (at least at this point in time) in a position to be home and thinking away - and that even if my life is not what i'd wish- it's a hell of alot better than most.
i don't want to be an ingrate and whining a$$ - which i know i can be- so sorry universe. I do get it- and see it - and know - when i manage to get even a small step back -
just that- SOOO - here's me yanking self up by boot sttraps and shutting up- & getting to work here -
one way or the otehr- i'm sure in the end it'll be something and good or bad - i'll just plug on thru. rite???
xxo -
ya know everyone - - sorry to be a jerk here sometimes (or)(alot) - glad you're there tho. unfortunately (for you all) and fortunately for me - this forum is my place to "fold" somewhat, speak the unspeakable (we love anonimity)sp? - drop the facade - no need to BE tough and together and mature and doin what i gotta - and just blop out the thoughts- good and bad , sort thru them. it does help to gain perspective - just "saying it out loud" - hearing self- thinking of listener and what she/he would be thinking- how it sounds - is it accurate/fair (crazy?) i don't want to wander too far into looney-land and not know it. someone always manages to spot the crazy and kindly point it out-
