I hope you're doing okay - & hanging in there. it's so hard, soooo long a time to have a person around shring your life - it's hard to be around them, it's hard to not have them around.
You're such a strong person- i hope it just gets better and easier - fingers crossed. didja ever imagine in your wildest dreams life would go this way, and you'd manage to deal with it and come thru it? not me- well, i wouldn't say i've "come thru" it - and i can see i'll be a bit messed up in the trust department- residual damage i guess from "life" - we all have it i guess for a variety of reasons.
BUT- i can see you're so ready to be able to have an r when it appears - i'm hopin i will be too - it's good sign - now all we have to do is slog thru a while more.
your h is kinda still in some sort of fog - going about his life with you at home- just like always- he doesn't seem to really really GRASP the whole thing of YOU not being in his life. imho
i wonder if it will be okay or he'll be a basket case when he really really REALLY realizes what the heck he's done? ya gotta wonder ?
i wonder same thing about my sitch- nothin to do but just keep plodding along til "the end". ???
will be laugh about this in five years??? one wonders.
