Maybell, thanks for the kind words and sage advice. Legal counsel is huge, and yes I have one I have spoken with, and will probably speak with them again next week. Your absolutely right, sometimes the unknown creates more fear, so the more you know about possible outcomes and how your life could and will be affected the better.
Zee, you are very right. I think I've just had a bad couple of days the last few days. The realization that her A is having troubles makes me happy, but also sad as I realize I've done a poor job of detaching.
Your totally right, the plot hasn't changed at all. I think I've realized I need to change and get better at what I'm doing. More internal focus and less external. I've put pressure in myself for this month, which is also not good. Detach and GAL ordered up for this week, with a PMA the whole week. Sounds like a plan. Back on track.