Roller coaster and then some

[daring]

So a weird day again- but not bad. We were talking about upcoming trip for H's sister's wedding. He was telling me some of the details and that he wants to giver the info so I can decide what I'm comfortable going to. ( his family all wants me there, known his sister since she was 8, he just knows it is hard for me to watch a wedding given what's going on with us). I noticed that was thoughtful. I said I would go to everything- it's for his sister. And he said "I want you there".
I went to an event with S7 for most of day and H hung out at house with the other kids. He offered to go grocery shopping and helped get some dishes and laundry done.
I texted him later in day a thank you, that it was very nice of him to go shopping. He texts back he will always support all of us with all he has to give.
Then later in day after I got back to house H seemed a little "off" ( ie MLC confusion but not total fog). Before he left for his house ( with S7 who asked to stay tonight with him) I thanked him again for grocery shopping and helping at house. He said you don't have to thank me, I will always help. I said I don't expect it from you, and he said well you can.

It is all so weird! I see glimpses that he cares. How can someone want to pull apart the whole family when that's not what they want deep down? Of course I know the answer- the alien MLC mothership. I live in the twilight zone just like the rest of the LBS'..... Hoping to reclaim the heart and mind of my alien at some point.