I found that understanding what my future *could* hold helped me be able to focus a little more on what is happening in the present. (Too bad I haven't been enormously effective with it...)
I don't know what you ought to do with your DB-ing, but it will be easier to implement whatever you decide if you feel more confident about the logistics of your life.
Hugs to you. I'm sorry you're here.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15