Cadet,
I was angry

For that I apologies. I am moving forward. I will read the suggested links.
I won't lie. I still have anger. I'm sorry about that.
My faith and trust is broken right now. Bug I will detach from her words. I will focus on myself and my corrections and my change, wait scratch that. I mean growth.
You're right I cannot change the past. I can accept my part. And I do.