Thank you for your kind words GB they really do lift me up
I actually should be grateful to have the opportunity to really work on myself and the faults I have that I can change and do better. Although I am not happy about the situation I really do need to make the best of it. I don't want to spend another morning crying in my bathroom instead of out enjoying the day with my boys. I actually am going back to school in the spring. I don't know if this counts as GAL or a 180 but this has been a pressing issue with H. I had been wanting to go to anesthesia school but it is a grueling program. H didn't feel like I needed to go to school - why can't you be happy with what we have why do you have to make more money. I said it's about furthering my career and setting us ip for the future so we can work smart! He later told my mother that he sees it as I feel that I have to support our family and I don't think he's good enough to do so. I did bring this up when we met a couple months ago and apologized if I came off wrong when I wanted to go back to school that I was only thinkng of both of us and it had no reflection on his ability to provide for our family. All I got was 'that wasn't how it seemed'
