That's where I feel is technically I am still married and while I am the only one honoring that right now I think it's something that I should as setting an example for my boys (not that I would ever tell them or introduce them to anyone)
The only reason would be to make me feel better about myself. I feel like a piece of garbage that I am not good enough to keep my husband. That he has some teenager that's skinny and just got a boob job for her birthday present. I know it sounds stupid and superficial but it's an ego blow. It's nice hearing that someone is interested. I talk to no men what so ever. I mean a few of the physicians at my work but we don't talk or anything outside of work. I guess I knew the right answer but I was just wanting conformation. My friends think I should go and enjoy myself but I know this is because they want me to stop hurting so badly. I need to do this in my own time and unfortunately I don't even know what that is. I have just been living day by day and trying not to think about the future too much because it hurts.
