Though I'm baffled by your resistance to changing the dynamic b/c you're just stuck or fear filled, I applaud your GAL plans for when you are here, and I do hope you can create something like that, in Sweden and wherever you go...
I'm mostly baffled by what I perceive as a very low self esteem. Stubborn and I have met you. You're so much more than these words here. You deserve more than you have in your "marriage"...so much more.
It has been long dead and I don't actually understand the sense of "looming death" that you feel b/c as GM as said, this has been really bad for so long. Hanging over your head like the sword of Damacles. I'd think you'd want it to be done already. Frankly, I don't think you'll regret the divorce that much.
I think you'll regret living like this for so long and you not leaving sooner, or being the one to end it. Not b/c of pride, but b/c of so very much wasted time....waiting...in pain and isolation...
and writhing in discomfort in your own home. Geez, now I'm sad.
I'm sending you HUGS and the admonition to not ever worry about what others think of gestures of kindness from you...
Sending Stubborn a gift, was KIND of you....(feel free to send me stuff too!)
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M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
