Ic work has been exactly that. Looooooooong way to go lol. Expectations cause disappointment. I am working on me. I am working on not having expectations but to give freely. Most days have been much better. Others not so good.
I made a big mistake during my m. I allowed w to validate me. To define me instead of defining myself. When she stopped validating who I was for me. I didn't know how to move forward. Does that make sense to anyone.
Recently I did something I have deep regret about. I invaded her privacy and read her words. I saw a truth about how she saw me and was destroyed by it. In that way she was right. I am weak So I continue my ic work. I look in the mirror and say you have worth. And I move forward. I'm trying to leave that pouty little boy behind. It ain't easy people. It ain't easy
