H has texted me 5 times already tonight - random questions like "Do you know where the big flashlight is? How many trips did you have to make to move? Were there a lot of neighbors outside?" I waited awhile before responding and then answered as briefly as possible.

I'm feeling like just being alone and not getting out and doing things. I know I should make an effort to do so because being alone while being depressed will just make it worse. I had the thought today "I don't feel like going on my vacation at the end of the month anymore. Maybe I should postpone it." I don't want to force myself to do something I don't feel like doing...maybe I'll feel better at the end of the month. Just thinking of getting up and going to get the rest of my stuff out of the car seems very difficult right now.


Me:30 H:29, no kids
T:12, M:4 (when D was final)
12/13: "Don't think I want to be M anymore"
6/14: Separated (I move)
1/15: H filed for D
5/15: D final