What to do

[Ben2010]

Thank you for all your encouragement Nettles. That helps a lot. My mind cant seem to stop picking everything apart and find hidden meanings. When you break it down like that it doesnt sound as bad.

She has said she thought she wasnt in love with me before. She did not say that during this separation thing though.

No she has never said that she wants a D. I have asked her and she always says no. But she does say that she doesnt know if we can work this out or not.

There are things that I can change to make the M better. Im doing a lot of reading and practicing communication with coworkers. Im also seeing the C to address the anger issues I have. Went to the Dr. to get put on anti-depressants, they wont take effect until next week sometime i dont think though, wish it was now...

I wouldnt call our communication frequent though. She sometimes just texts to say good night i love you. She has done some kind of communication every day though except one.

I have decided to not go to morning service tomorrow. I will go to night service as usual and see how that goes. If it goes ok then I will start morning service next week.

About the date, I dont have any expectations that she will go. I am trying to tell myself that she wont, so that i wont get let down. She will probably just tell me that she forgot we had that planned or something. Although it is after church on Sunday next week, so kinda hard to forget.

Thanks again Nettles for giving me a positive outlook on things, you have no idea how much it means at a time like this for me.