Riding the crazy train. I continue to struggle with focusing so much on H and our interactions or lack there of instead of me. Why is it so easy to give advice to somebody else but not take the advice yourself. Not that I haven't been doing things for me as well....but grrr!

Finished the course for him, he made 2 comments about me earning 2k for doing it. It pisses me off a little, that was $$ he transferred for plane tix and rental car for our trip for me and his kids! Ignored it, I already thanked him for transferring the extra money. Unfortunately, money to him has always been directly related to his self worth so I guess I shouldn't take it personal.

Goals:
Focus on me and kids
Stay positive
continue to work out
Eat healthier, prepare more meals
Continue to be productive around the house


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since