My ss19 graduated today. It was very touching and he had one of the loudest cheering sections. It was a strange day with h....close but yet so far. We drove separate because I was going to work after but sat together. At the party after he came and sathe with me a few times and made small talk. It never occurred to him to get a card and was grateful when I offered to sign his name to the card and balloons I got.

At the same time he spent the whole day checking his texts and disappearing outside. I wonder if he was stressed hanging out with 1 estranged wife and 1 ex wife.

The day was bittersweet. Wif 1's family have always been so sweet to s and I and I wonder how much I will see of them in the future

There were so many times today I had to stop myself from reaching out for his hand as that would be very unwelcome.

But I enjoyed the day. Smiled and didn't show him I was hurting. Chit chatted with everyone, played with the kids etc.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15