it is pitiful, isn't it? i feel that too. th is business of always haveing to worry about the side "you're showing" and strate gy, etc. i am a woman with no strategy.
i hate not feeling like being who i am is "good enough" - i want to just stop allll the bs - be me- be loved for that and tell everyone else in world to go drop dead.
unmfortunately- can't just yet. have to "play this game" jockey for position, etc. sorry my dear- i feel your pay and annoyance- it does $uck big time. are we supposeed to be consoled by how wise and so forth wwe are going to be when this is alll over??/ slim consolation
ui just want positve happy people around too - also i see in my h what you describe - a charming big fat liar- where did the nice guy go?
oh well- i'm outta here so i do not go "dreary " on you. you sound good tho- head on straight- i wonder also if we bail - will they ever wake up and cry because they f'd up their own livwes and happiness (i have slim hope he'll weep because of the pain he's caused me) .
oh well-
i guess i'm glad i'm not as blind & selfish as that?! can that be a consolation? maybe they are our good bad examples of human-hood? idk-
