Most everyone is just speechless .. They just don't know/have anything to say.
Not much to update. Haven't heard from H in days. This is probably the longest he's gone without texting me. I feel like he is further and further away from me and really liking his life without me in it. But I know that is just my assumption. At least the last time we did talk was me sending him a text saying 'I really appreciate you helping with the car payment this month.' I got a you're welcome and nothing since.
I have my DB coach appt on Monday. It is supposed to rain here again this weekend so looks like the boys and I will have to find something to do indoors
H asked last week if the boys wanted to go to a BMX race tonight I told him we had plans but id ask the boys if they'd rather do that and I told him my oldest said he wasn't sure and he'd think about it. Well they don't want to go. I am going to get my oldest into some type of counseling. When H came over 2 nights ago my oldest wouldn't even go see him he stayed in my bedroom. He wouldn't go on a bike ride with H and S3. I feel sad for him - but I can't make him have a relationship with his dad just like I can't make H be a better father. He believes this is better for the kids and I can't change that.
