Ggrass, I'm the one leaving because I couldn't stay. W says she loved with everything and maybe for her it was. I don't know anymore. I'm hollow. I just got to the end of my rope and lost faith. She thought I had affairs, I didn't. She said I was cold and distant, maybe, but truthfully I think that was the result of years of being pushed away.
Lets not worry about her - you can only CONTROL YOU and FIX yourself.