Cross country DB with WAS

[Anders]

I woke up in the middle of the night from a horrible nightmare/feeling. W was moving on.

In a panic, I called her in the middle of the night to ask her if we were okay (I realize how crazy that sounds after all I just described). She seemed touch that I was feeling this way and reassured me we were okay.

That's when it hit me just how much damage I had caused.

It really felt like I had been in an out of body experience the last two years and all of a sudden I was thrown right back in with all of that realization.

I began to write her an email. Which became a letter. I was filled with so much remorse and shame about the way I had treated her.

I sat on that letter. I decided it was best to give to her in person rather than send it to her. This was to be over Christmas when she would be home.