own buz 30: My self-value, dropping the rope.

[makingmagic]

it was not a threat.... maybe it was just the way i wrote it.

What I meant was that I was going to approach the subject, again. To see & understand what the hold up is.... and I was right, he was "blocking" me because he feels that we need to still "talk" more about it. He is stalling for 2 reasons. 1) because he feels he is letting go of "HIS" business 2) he is overwhelmed with worry/concern about the current status of our business location.

This turned into a bit of a heated discussion. He started raising his voice & yelling. I tried to tell him that I am on the same side as him and that I feel no matter what I say, he will not like it. We calmed down and I began to speak nicer. He got teary eyed. Telling him that I appreciate that he is the brains behind our operation and that I realize that in turn he takes care of me too. He is still very overworked & overwhelmed with life. He was assuming that I would go with him to an early morning auction out of town & I stated that it was not necessary that I could come to the shop early and open the door. He eventually agreed I would do that. Then I started asking if he prefer I go with him. He declined. I called him & we were disconnected so went to the lot where he was to finish convo. & to ask if he wanted my company tomorrow instead. He said No, that it was fine to do it alone.

GRRRR... now I am beating myself up. I feel like I was chasing him.