1wish, it's not about having an elastic band on your wrist, it's about focusing on yourself. What are you doing to GAL?
Bro I cant really GAL because thats one of the main reasons she felt neglect.. I left her by herself at night and would come home very late, sometimes at 3am even.. I've never cheated on her though, she's the only girl I have never done that to.
And also my past is really dirty in terms of girls and a lot of girls in my area know me and whenever I bump into them they tend to give me a hug and what not and my wifes always hated that and brings that up.
She says I cant believe I married a slut.. the thing is I cant change what happened yesterday and I've told her that if I knew I would meet her and would get married to her I would have saved my virginity, she always plays that card because she lost hers to me.
Also we are now selling my car and getting a car we can both share so I don't know if shes going to go anymore.
I don't think she'll say that she's going to stay but just stay if that makes sense.
But obviously I just dont know and feel like im in a limbo. Which I obviously am.
I wish my marriage is saved and I really wish things go good and I can make her happy even if I'm not because she deserves happiness out of all people.. shes had a terrible upbringing and I as her husband had a responsibility of keeping her happy and I failed. I can never forgive myself.
But I guess the past is the past, and I cant change yesterday. Im trying to get rid of all the past from our lives.. we moved houses so thats one thing and I dont go out no more and left my friends thats another.. we are now in east london whereas we were in north london before.. all thats left is the car and me.. I cant change my looks but I guess I can change my personality.
It shouldnt be this way...
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