CSan00 - My story

[CS000]

Thornton - I think I am tapped out and have given all I can...I have gained strength and new boundaries but I want to lose this pain. I know that I will be okay on my own with my kids. I just have to move on and get all this packing done then clean up before we leave this house for good. I am praying all goes well with my D 17 to get her to her Dad in Japan. They say everything happens for a reason...and perhaps I am gaining a lot more than what I am losing? So many thoughts in my head. Thank you all for this safe place

[CS000]

My STBXH texted me around midnight an apology for all the bad and hurt he caused. I don't know how to reply or if I even should? Can anyone chime in as we are signing the papers today.

[CS000]

We signed today.

[Thornton]

I'm sorry CSan. What are your thoughts about it? What are you feeling?

[CS000]

I feel a bit sick and sad. I saw the coldness return to my STBXH and I don't see or feel like a R in the future is even a remote possibility. I just feel like going home lying in bed and crying but I have more packing to do.

[CS000]

I think I might stop wearing my rings...the divorce will be finalized in a month so around 4th of July...fitting isn't it? :-(

[Thornton]

It's still not over until you say it is. I read that 20% of divorced couples get remarried.

I've been throught a D before and it's not fun, but you can and will survive it.

PS. After the divorce, my ExW wanted me back. I had already moved on and she regrets the D to this day.

[CS000]

Thanks Thornton! This is my 2nd divorce and I will not repeat the mistake of getting married for a 3rd time. I just want to get over this and move on....easier said than done. I know I will survive and be okay with time but I wish it would be quick and easy. I'm home now and have an awful headache. Guess I will rest for a bit then make dinner for me and my youngest son.

[CS000]

I guess I don't know where to go from here now that the divorce has been filed. It feels like my STBXH is getting his wish and I am having to start over again. I don't even know if I can trust his words as he is all over the place. I know I need to focus on myself and my kids and let it go because I can't control anything only myself and my reaction.

[Thornton]

Hang in there and remember to stay in the now. Take one day at a time and try not to predict the future (I need to take my own advice on this).

What are you doing to GAL?