I noticed a change when recently when you weren't emotional, then after the blow up with W, you are clouded/unfocused/spun up again.
When I first got here I was a wreck, emotionally, a lot of the time. It was affecting my health, my interactions with the boys, and W.
Since you picked up my reference to Dune on another thread, I'm going to guess you like sci-fi.
I suggest you channel your inner Mr. Spock. BE Mr. Spock.
You are male and I believe have technical background, so you can put logic and brain ahead emotions rather easily when you have to. When the situation calls for it.
It's calling.
I figured out how to look at my W as a scientist conducting some crazy experiment. My schickt here became "goggles and clipboard" making dispassionate observations of the alien.
I was Mr. Spock (most of the time).
When I could do that, I didn't spin so much, I accepted this sucky reality. And reality simply IS. It's neither positive nor negative, it just IS.... WE determine whether it's positive or negative for us. And we can control our perception.
It got so much better for ME, and my KIDS, when I accomplished ^^^ (and actually for W too, as an unintended side effect). It was a great opportunity to model for my boys how a man handles adversity.
Please accept that this is your reality, and there is no out of it, only THROUGH it.... And what would Spock do? How would Spock get through this?
Now, you have a pretty direct question up there ^^^ to answer.
Answer AS IF you are Mr. Spock.
Live long and Prosper...
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
