Well, you've now seen how you threatening to move out is going to work. Let's cross that off the list, shall we?
Have you read other people's threads? Not just newbies but vets' threads as well? I read MrBond's when I first got here. His is a very long story, so I don't expect anyone to read it in full like I did (not kidding), but I learned a heap about DB by following his transformation from newbie to when he stopped posting on his own situation.
The more you read, the more you'll find that you're not alone, that everyone here has started somewhere no matter their level of experience with DB.
Tbh ill probably read it in full, where do I find it and how?
Also would someone stay with you becayse they dont want to hurt you?