man, i just wrote a whole thing and it disappeared. Hate that! OT, thank you for your reply. I did do something nice for myself yesterday. Got a haircut. A cute summer bob. It is short and sassy! I took some pics in case I want to go on match someday!
Went to a support group meeting last night. 15 women. All ages, all walks of life. no one is immune to this... A lot of pain in that room.
We were talking about negative emotions and letting go. I said I want to release resentment that I feel towards h. I was so surprised at how easily the tears came even after being at this for more than 2 years now. That resentment is still so front in my brain. I want to wake up and say I don't care what the heck h is doing. i never know anymore if he is in town, out of town. It doesn't really matter anymore. He does what he wants to do. I need to do what I need to do. I need to go take a walk.
M48 H50 M21 T26 S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old PA confirmed 7/2012 H separates 9/2012 H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY OW still in picture. h filed 10/13
