I feel like I'm being punished but don't know what for. So, anger is not an unusual response for someone in my position.
Yep. I know that feeling well, my friend. We all do. Every one of us on this board know that feeling and can easily identify.
You used to be sure of yourself. Why aren't you now? Did your W surprise you? I suspect so. It's something that throws you for a loop. You straddle that ground between what *should* be and what *is* and it's...difficult.
I think you made your point. No need to revisit unless that helps you get those thoughts out and sort through them.
One thing that may help. Stop expecting something from her. You are expecting her to keep her word when she says something. Really? Stop doing that. It's not helping you.
Outside of that, what are your options? I see them as nothing to do with W. I see your options as strictly to do with you and your family (without W). No more. No less.
When you absorb that, I think things will become clearer. The anger will dissipate. Why? Because what is, is.
We've all felt the "it's unfair" or "why?" feelings. Seems normal. But there's no need to second guess your own actions. Trust me on that.
Understand? Less sanity?
Be careful what you wish for buddy. Seriously.
As for things to say. Why are they stuck? What are you going to lose or regret if you say them? Are they important? If so, say them. No harm at this point, but don't get sucked in. If not, then let them go Matt. The stress is not worth it and you have other things to focus on.
Drop the rope. Give yourself that gift...
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
