25 years, I am not angry at you. I'm sorry I over reacted but like I tried to explain my adrenaline levels are about to explode! I have had to borrow $ from my poor dad and mom, spend most of my time on D stuff instead of finding money, haven't slept well in days and had to bury the 14 year old family cat that was in pieces at the time and smelled about as bad as it looked!
I have had so many bad things being thrown my way in such a short time it is killing me (including some money issues that I'm trying to take care of WITH the W that I haven't posted about). Yes, I had a knee-jerk reaction but I'm as close to a nervous breakdown as I've ever been and a little bit sensitive. I am truly sorry if I offended you. I'm not angry at you...I WAS angry at the endless parade of S%$t that has been coming my way over the last 5-6 days, you just happened to be there and when my buttons were pushed. I'm not proud of that and it goes against what I feel is what a man should do (see last post) and again, I am sorry.
The worst part of this is I don't argue with my W like that. I never defend myself or tell her how she is "wrong" unless I lose it and I tell you guys when that happens. The most I've said to her about her filing was that I am disappointed that she refused to try MC and now is even refusing to try trial separation. If she had done either or both of those I wouldn't be so upset as I would feel she at least tried. That and the things about the petition itself (separate property and Primary custody). I guess what I do is defend my positions on here since I can't when I deal with her. It gets stuck in my gut all the things I want to say and this is a way to get it out!
