Actually no, I was always VERY sure of myself. I only have become unsure since things went to H%4l at home. I have had to re-start several times in my life due to things outside of my control. Every time I was able to not only pick myself up but do better than before. I went from a highly tech. career to sales when I had a job fall through back in the 1990's. I had no experience but was able to be making really good money in less than a year. After that job went away after an injury, I started in one the most demanding sales environments there is, oil and NG. I got a brokerage Series 7 lic. and made 6 figures while watching hundreds of good, smart people come and go because they just couldn't make it. This is why I decided to try doing this as part owner after the co. I was with closed.
Whenever things got tuff I would just think I need to do this for my family and that kept me going. I do find that a lot of the people I find myself working with aren't family types. They are divorced or run around on their S's and think nothing of it. I never made many friends at work. I did make friends at my kids schools and they were all family type people.
I know I should be doing better at this job then I am by now but I have let my sitch get to me.I mean if I can't make the most important R in my life work, what am I doing wrong? This isn't something I am used to at all. None of this makes ANY sense to me and that has knocked me off kilter. I did everything the way I thought was the "right" way, the way a man is supposed to for his family and still I find myself here. I married someone who told me that they didn't believe in D, would never put the kids through it, etc. for a reason. Because while I was lucky enough to grow up with both parents, most of my friends didn't and I saw how bad that was. I vowed never to let that happen, no matter what but again, here I am. That can make you very unsure when the core values you have lived by that you thought you shared with your S are destroyed and you can't do a damn thing about it. That makes you a little unsure!
