I went to the required parenting class last night. They showed video after video of kids with just a huge amount of pain they're carrying around. I wanted to puke. It does give me some more motivation to try and work things out with W. I do hope this trip does something for her.
I'm kind of stunned she's actually doing this. She's getting on the plane shortly. This is a big risk for her as far as time with the kids go. Being away from them for 3-4 weeks in the middle of divorce proceedings...
We talked a little last night and I told her I know pretty much exactly what she needs from me in a relationship. I listed it out and she just smiled.
I just have to figure out if she can give me what I need. For my kid's sake I would probably try. I still feel like I'm just a backup plan to her... maybe that would change after a while of reconciliation.
